ER, the exit line, and deeper musings

So i guess last night was pretty good.
i spent the whole day stressing because jrae wasn't answering any of my calls or texts, and she was very sick the night before when i last talked to her.
i ended up biting the bullet and going to HQ for a gig, even though it would deplete my monies a decent amount.
I ended up meeting a couple guys, and actually enjoyed a couple of the bands allot.
but maybe i just get too over excited over small things ahaha
early on in the gig, when The Exit Line was playing, i got messages form jrae explaining the situation.
she was taken into the ER to be operated on because of her ear etc.
but she is taking some pills for the pain now and should still be okay to come up and visit in a few days. i jut hate that i cant be there to look after her.

I am now officially in love with Teriyaki tofu. end of.
and potato marsala (curry)
nom nom nom

I am coming to realize, almost like an epiphany, that i am finding it really hard to connect and engage with allot of people. i htink this annoys me allot because i want to be so positive and social, but i just don't seem to know how to do it without people giving me weird looks.
i guess this is just the point of my life that i am going through. that one where i am supposed to find myself and my niche in society.
or something like that.
i find that i no longer want to make everyone happy, but rather only a select few.
and im becoming a little more arrogant i think. well i know im not arrogant. im jsut always disappointed with everything around me.
i see so much potential and beauty in so many things around me, but it is all wasted.
i cant express this enough. but its sad. and i guess this annoys me, and thus comes off in a negative way?
but then again i dont know how people see me at all.
and im starting not to care so much.
which is apparently good?

ok i shall stop rambling about these deeper, personal musings.

i started a humble voice account.
its a social networking site, but its more focused on being a mode of sharing art, photography, music and writing with other artists. i quite like the concept.
www.humblevoice.com/anathema
make an account and add me?

anyways, thanks heaps for reading.

Stay True.