GAHHHHH
some things are so frustrating, and others so great.
im trying t contain myself, because im aware of how many times i have gotten excited over something like this, only for it to fall apart.
but i think this could be genuine, for a few reasons. yeah some things aren't quite how i want them, but i have to be more accepting. plus, those things don't matter when she is so breathtaking.
she says that she has never felt like this before, and i want to believe her.
sitting on the train, in silence with my arm around her, everything seems so natural, so comfortable like i have done it many times before. yet my nerves jump on end, wanting to say and do so many things.
and i know she is in the same boat.
at the moment we are both holding ourselves back, and i think this is healthy.
things can only get better, and i will try my best, like i never have before.
i like her a lot.

positives:
friends
music
roadtrips
HER
taking things slow, and just chilling

negatives:
money
no job
no bass

so i dont have anything to whinge about, as i know all will work out for me.
i am strong, and i will get want i want
i am not greedy.
and certain people that are making drama in my life dont deserve me. i know this is true, but im trying to find the strength to tell them to fuck off completely.
i have done it already once this week, and it felt great.

i want to be her everything.
i know i can do it.
i cant stop thinknig about how beautiful she is in my eyes.

/end rant

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